i've lost my life how are you
i'm in cameroon, i'm never going back to chad.
i was never unsafe there, this decision was made way too quickly. a temporary evacuation until the elections would have been fine then they could have reevaluated this is just ridiculous.
i was away from my site at the time, i didn't get to say goodbye to my family or friends, people that i care sooooo much about, who are never going to understand why i had to leave because where i live it is so safe. i may never see them again, who knows.
i lost my entire life, everything i know.
i don't know what i'm doing yet. i don't think i can handle coming home i don't know if i'm ready to just jump right into life in another country.
i do love and miss you all, but right now my heart is in tchad.
i was never unsafe there, this decision was made way too quickly. a temporary evacuation until the elections would have been fine then they could have reevaluated this is just ridiculous.
i was away from my site at the time, i didn't get to say goodbye to my family or friends, people that i care sooooo much about, who are never going to understand why i had to leave because where i live it is so safe. i may never see them again, who knows.
i lost my entire life, everything i know.
i don't know what i'm doing yet. i don't think i can handle coming home i don't know if i'm ready to just jump right into life in another country.
i do love and miss you all, but right now my heart is in tchad.
posted by Rebecca @ 7:38 AM
5 Comments:
At 11:17 PM,
TCHAPE said…
Bonjour Mlle becca silverstein,
je vous écris depuis la suisse, nous sommes une ONG tavaillons dans l’environnement, et le développement durable du lac Tchad et nous sommes en chante de votre l’excellente blog, nous vous souhaitons bon retour dans notre cher pays le Tchad.
Sincèrement à vous
http://tchape.blogspot.com
At 10:23 AM,
jamie said…
wow ... i'm so sorry to here that becca! actually i just got your letter today and so randomly checked your blog since you usually don't get to update. that's really sad news ... can you still stay in africa with the peace corps? i hope things work out for the best, but am really sorry that you had to leave chad!
At 1:43 AM,
Camille said…
Becca I'm so sorry! I got your letter today and it sounded like things were finally starting to normalize in Krim Krim for you. I hope that whatever happens will work out well. It must be incredibly difficult not to be able to say goodbye to everyone. I love you and miss you and want you to know that I think about you lots of times every single day. Everything will work out.
LOVE,
Cami
At 2:23 AM,
Lee Douthitt said…
Becca
Like Cami, I just got your letter today. I actually havent read it yet because I was saving it to read before I go to bed-- something not depressing so I wont have to dread my seventh graders tomorrow. Then Cami IMed me and told me what happened. I'm so sorry!!!! It sucks a lot that all this has to happen, both in Tchad and to you because you have invested so much in so little time. I'm pretty sad for you and for everyone on your site right now because I know that you have touched so many throughout your journey. And just because I know you and who you are so well I do know that you will continue to touch those who need to be touched, whether it is in Tchad, in the Peace Corps, or the United States. On the bright side, if you do have to come home, I just got Season One of The OC and you can come visit and we can watch Seth do zaney things.
Love
Lee
At 4:17 PM,
Anonyme said…
Becca I've been reading your blog and I can't even begin to understand how upset you must be and how little my condolances might help or matter, but if you are in the area in the summer and want to hang out and hate on the virginia suburbs, we can plan. It's certainly not Tchad but these things are out of your control which is always so frustrating I suppose all anyone can do is re-build and plan to get back to the places that make you happy.
with love,
Alex(leon_)
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